Android Cycle

NieR: Automata and the first steps as a freelancer.

Spoilers for NieR: Automata to follow.

I set my controller down as I finished NieR: Automata’s five main endings.

2B’s self-sacrifice, A2’s vendetta, 9S’s plunge to madness, Devola and Popola’s burden, and Pascal’s shattered dreams.

These thoughts remained in my head as I sat back and stared at the ceiling.

I started my freelance journey basically working for free. All I received was spare change if I even received anything at all for that month.

I wrote the same words over and over again until they’ve lost their meaning.

And I repeated the same thing over and over again until I lost my meaning.

For the first time in my life, I was caught in a never-ending cycle.

The cycle of constantly looking for who I am and what I should be. 

Similar to the androids.

I asked myself countless questions.

Am I in the right field?

Who am I writing for?

Did my words reach them?

Suddenly, a Twitter DM. Someone I didn’t know. They introduced themselves, I do the same. They asked for my contact information. I was skeptical, but shared it either way. An email from them followed. They introduced themselves once more.

I scrolled down.

Hold on.

I know that logo.

I read the email again. This time, more carefully. It’s an outlet and they want my words on their site.

My words? They want MY words?

And then, a rush of emotions. 




My hands shook and my eyes widened in disbelief.

A glimmer of light can be seen in the obsidian-colored darkness clouding my mind.

Maybe, just maybe, I have found my purpose.

And maybe through that purpose, my words will find their meaning.

I smiled as I finished reminiscing. 

However, one last question is still unanswered.

And so I ask.

Did my words reach you?

By Cedric Pabriga

Cedric Pabriga is a wandering video games writer who delves into guide writing and features. His guides can be found on IGN/IGN Wiki and his features can be found on KeenGamer. When he's not writing, he's either gaming or listening to music. Find him on Twitter @IchikaRika.

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